I'm 52; it's definitely a different feeling to life to know you've been through so much and yet still don't always feel like you have a handle of what's next.

I'm sorry about your dogs and your mom; it's never easy to lose pets and to have to shift your responsibilities/role with a parent.

I hope you're able to go up in a hot air balloon! My husband and I did so a while ago and it was so much fun!